A New Life, New Beginnings

WOW, where do I start???  I have just went through the most miraculous, exciting, scary, and tiring journey of my whole entire life.  The Wilson, Brown, and Slaton families headed out to Huntsville Hospital on May 10th, 2010 to meet the most special person I can ever begin to explain.  We arrived at the hospital around 10:30 for my scheduled C-section,  they took me, Toph, and mama back around 10:45 to ask us questions get my IV and prep me for surgery.  My other family got to come in a little later to see me off.  One misconception I had when going into surgery was, that they would give me something for anxiety to calm you down.  I was so scared.  I got to take 2 people back with me so mom and Toph got to come along.  I went into the room and totally freaked out, I saw all those tools and stuff and I DO NOT do good with that.  He gave me the spinal block and I couldn't feel my legs, arms, or torso and then I really panicked.  My BP skyrocketed and they pretty much put me under but not all the way.  Toph was talking to me and mom was taking pics, lol.  I remember getting a little sick... Landon was up in the womb very high so they had to cut a little larger incision and vaccum him out.  He finally arrived in this world at 12:30 on Monday!  I can remember asking if he was okay and Toph just kept shaking his head yes, and I saw him for just a second and then they took him away. 
Then I was put into recovery for THREE hours without seeing my sweet baby boy, because of my blood pressure and labs.  I was so anxious to see my little man.  When I finally saw him, my heart melted and I will never be the same person I was going into the hospital.  I now know what parents are talking about when they say is a love you can't explain.  It felt like my heart was going to burst with all the love I felt for Landon.  I thought, this is my Baby, my baby, that is all I could say..  I didn't ever know I could love something so much so fast and be so worried about him all at the same time. 
I keep thinking this baby is mine FOREVER, and I want him to be a baby, but I imagine him growing up playing and doing all the things he will want to do.. It makes me so happy, happier than I have ever been in my life. 
We stayed in the hospital for 3 nights and it was not a very good experience getting over a C-section while breastfeeding but we made it. My BP was very high and we had to monitor it closely.  Toph was such an amazing daddy and helped me so much.  I have chosen the best person for my mate, one who helps even when he is tired, because he loves us so much.  He is one proud papa bear! 
We finally got 2 come home and we set off the alarm system leaving, it was pretty funny now you think about it, but not at the time :)  They left Landon's baby monitor on him, so we shut down the elevators and everything.  So Landon has been coming into this world with a bang! 
Since we have been home, things are tough but still so much fun... Breastfeeding was really hard a first but it is getting much better.  I just think of my babies health, when I get discouraged...
Landon has been dressed up since he has been home, Granna B is decking him out in all his clothes, and he looks precious.  I don't know what I would do without Toph, B, and Nae helping keep the ship afloat.  I know everyday will get a little easier. 
I now have this special angel that God has given me, to take care of, love, and cherish.  I am so happy that he has blessed me with my baby boy, my emotions are so strong that I can't control them!  Until next time, I know we will have lots of adventures, next up, Dr. Appointment Monday @ 1:15.... Love to all, from the Wilson family of three!